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- 19, Female
- Yukon River
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Should I ask for my fate to show Or should I just let fate naturally flow It doesn't really matter to me To know or just let it be
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Truthfully, I have never viewed myself as beautiful, that wasn't a word I would use to describe myself. Yeah, I have been called it before but mostly by friends, cousins, and other family members or people in the community, I kind just shook it off because of course they would say it, to give a quick and easy compliment. So, honestly this week has, yeah it just started, been making me think. My boyfriend, we were talking and here's how the conversation went.
He told me,"guess what."
"What," I said.
He replied,"I love you. Also some of my buddies think your hot." I didn't know what to say, I never thought I needed a response for this kind of conversation. But I had to respond so I said,"I love you too and what???"
He repeated himself,"They think your hot."
In my mind I still couldn't actually process it and just replied with a,"Oh uh okay?" Then we just continued on the conversation. Throughout the night I still kept trying to process it because that's like a group of guys right there and well there's never been a group, is that the correct way to put it? Yeah, I have had admirer's before but it's just like one there and another there and that's normal.
Then today in my ENG 211x I was sitting next to guy and I noticed at the corner of my eye that he kept looking over at me. I automatically thought that he smelled BO from my armpits because I was wearing a tank top and the room was a little warm. I kept my arms down much as possible and because it made me nervous thinking oh my fucking god he smells my pits. I started sweating and it was just a mess, but I didn't smell my sweat or anything, and I did do the hygiene routine this morning.
After class I met my sister at the cafeteria and we ate and started walking to the truck to go home. We were walking and I was about to start that story and, I shit you not, he magically just popped out of nowhere. My eyes went huge and told my sister I'll tell you when we were farther away and she's just all confused as fuck. So, as we were closer to the truck I told her and she laughed and told me,"You're dumb. What if he was looking at you because you're pretty?" It just didn't register in my head that's why. Then I told her the guy that popped out in front of while we were walking was the guy I was talking about and she laughed harder and just loved the coincedence of the whole thing. It was so stupid.
Though I still won't admit he was looking at me because I was pretty, or anything, I think it's because I was the only one wearing a bright colored shirt out of a class that was just basically wearing black and white. Plus it is a nice shirt. But if this weird pretty stuff and things keep happening this week I just might to scrub it out once in a while. Because well I do dress nice, I buy expensive clohes and I feel formal when I wear them becuase I'm used to dressing formally while I am in the city. Maybe I'm just overthinking it because well I do overthink things, and it's just bad... Real bad.
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